I had always imagined that once baby came, I was going to turn into this superhero mommy. But that didn’t happen. It took less than 24 hours of being a mother for me to be introduced to this thing called mommy guilt. It was a terrifying and unknown territory for me. I had heard other moms talk about it, but I had no idea how difficult the experience is. I couldn’t find my way out. When I thought I had gotten a hold of it, something would happen and those feelings would come rushing right back in. I got pregnant for the second time 11 months after the first. Then, after my second son was born, my first born started having seizures. The mommy guilt hit an all-time high. I couldn’t care for my newborn because my first child needed so much attention. I felt so out of control and alone. I wasn’t able to articulate to my husband what was going on because I was unsure. I didn’t have the language. I didn’t have the emotional intelligence to talk to him. I felt stuck.